After watching Whitney's funeral I am covered by the blood of God. I feel so at peace. I have so much faith. I am so grateful that I have finally found my way with the lord and my bond is stronger than ever. I seek him even through the tough times. I look to him for my job. I look to him to pray for people that don't even know Im praying for them. I seek the lord not only for the bad but for the good. He is so worthy to be praised and ever since I started my first job I have needed him more than ever. Melissa P told me a few weeks ago that Jesus has become my boyfriend and that is so true...he has. He loves me unconditionally, will never hurt me and always sees me through. He has given me the strength to cut a lot of negativity and hurt out of my life. He has blessed me in more ways than I know or can even remember. My spiritual journey with the lord is far from over. There's still a lot of work to be done. Im not perfect, I am still a sinner, and I am young. I also know I will never judge anyone for their discretions and I too hope not to be judged. But God has anointed me and covered me. My mom would always say something along the lines of "if Jesus came today where would you go? I used to resent her for this especially once when it came right before heading to a party but now I get it...God is not a joke...death is real, jesus is real and the uncertainty of life is real"
My spirituality has always been something I struggled with. Trying to do what I want as opposed to what God wanted for me had to end...I wasn't happy. I was drinking and partying yet waking up void of something. Now I wake up calling on the lord for prayer to get me through the day and reading my bible on the train looking for words of inspiration. Not saying Im a complete angel because Im not (Miami in a couple weeks lord knows what ratchetness may take place) but I am on a journey and all I see is the lord's light.
AMEN!
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