Heartbreak

Love. My mama warned me against the horror of doing drugs, drinking alcohol and the consequences of having sex before I was ready but my mama never warned me about Love. Love, this beautiful disaster that came into my life unannounced, swept me off my feet, showed me a deeper way to love and left so unexpectedly.

Sometimes I feel true love never dies because although I am able to carry on with my life unaffected by the loss of an amazing relationship, to this day I still love him and I don’t believe that, that love will ever fade away. It wasn’t the valentine’s day cards or the love letters that illustrated the depth of my love for him; Essentially it was post break up, the exact moment I realized me and this significant other would never be the same and would never love in its purest form, that it hit me we are really over. I was devastated and it was honestly one of the hardest things I ever had to deal with. I remember being locked up in my room for days upon days, without eating and I had an unrelenting desire to be in darkness, even as the summer sun shined so bright. I listened to Boys II Men on repeat; Four seasons’ of loneliness to be exact because I was sure loneliness would be my fate, “Remember the nights when we closed our eyes and that meant you and I would be in love for all times.”

However back then there was one lesson that I was never taught, I actually had to learn it for myself. The first time I see tears fall on my daughters face I will always remember to tell her these words of wisdom “They always come back” and this is very true. Even if you have moved on to another person and you both are living happily ever after, they always return, so unexpectedly but right around the time when you have reached a peak of happiness. Whether you take them back or not is your decision, but they will return so no need to shed tears and waste your pretty.